Hi Baby -- Happy New Year!

It is officially 2018 and I am hoping more than anything that this is the year that you join our family. I hope that somewhere out there you are already growing big and strong in your birth mom's belly. I hope that sooner rather than later we get to meet you. I hope you love our family and our home. Sweet baby, trust me -- you have a really cool Daddy, Brother and puppies who are hoping for this too. 

As much as I am excited, I am starting to feel guilty about wishing for you. Wishing for you means I am also wishing for another woman, your birth mom, to make the most selfless and devastating choice. Meeting you will be one of the best days for our family and one of the worst days for someone else. That is the other side of the adoption coin. Admit it or not, adoption starts with a tragedy. 

I have created life. I birthed a baby. That is not an experience for the weak of heart. So Baby, if you can, be nice to your birth mom. No need to make her sick or achy. Just cherish her for the 9 months you are all hers. Pretty soon, your birth mom is about to make the ultimate sacrifice for you and our family. Wow Baby, you are so so loved. 

"A child born to another woman calls me mommy. The magnitude of that tragedy & the depth of that privilege are not lost on me." -- Jody Landers

Love you baby... When Skies are Grey, or White, or Blue....

XO&